TALENT is the name for raw potential.

My time with Tumblr has been awesome!

But I realized I am just not moving on.

I dont have people to talk to.

Which is why I love Tumblr so much.

But I promised not to talk to her.

When I type my feeling out on here I feel like im showing her them. 

I have decided to delete this Tumblr and start one somewhere else. n.n

So I can Leave her in the past I she can be happy.

I have decide NOT to talk to her again. 

I wanted to be friends but I CANT be just friends.

n.n My part in her story ended.

Even if I dont like it

I have to realize that.

Im gonna leave her alone permanently.

:l

So heres t giving up on-on what though?

I know. Heres to giving up on a once in a lifetime Girl. 

God willing I hope I never fall for one again….

Turns out

I have to keep moving

or the past will catch up to me.

:)

You know what sucks. The fucking nightmares. There really pissing me off. I need some sleep But they feel to real. So I guess I will stay up Tumblr. but I cant keep this up forever. If no sleep doesnt get me. the god damn memory’s will.

Moments like this I wish I could just forget. It would be so much fucking easier. If I was someone else I would pity myself. but im me so im disgusted. This clingly shit is going to drive me insane. Im old fuckings news. Its like the only way I can have peace in my head is if I hate but im better than that. I just dont understand what im missing, to forget it all. I need that peice tumblr. Where IS it?

Is it a replacement? I doubt it. There isnt another.

But maybe its the promises I just had to make those promises. too call on HIM as my witness the most passionate promise of my life and it will amount to shit. Fuck.

I feel like I let him down. When I said forever I meant it. Shit. 3 three years is nothing  Such a pathetic promise. I wonder if he laughed he I said it. and he knew it wouldnt even get far. >:( just thinking about it boils my blood. I have to constantly weigh this understanding with this anger. Balance this drive and disappointment. Disappointment in myself, disappointment in so much. And to top it off if its not the nightmares these goddamn memories fucking assault me whenever I have the chance to think! I cant help but think I got it worst. 

Now that im exhausted and people are waking up so I can talk to them I guess I can end this. That you tumblr for listening.

Push forward and decide destiny. 

To be great?

To be worthy?

To be satisfied?

To be loyal?

To be fearsome?

To be happy?

I dont know, I’ve only obtained these things temporarily.

But I will move forward till I find out.

I have lost too much not to make it worth something.

I scarred myself with too much stupidity not to have learned something. 

I will work on everything. Be great. Then maybe. Maybe that lose will be worth it. 

To make up for this I NEED to get in the history books.

And I freakin will.

>:l

I will let go of the things I have carried to make people happy.

My God and who I am is all I will carry. 

No more masks, No more lies. 

I will rip America in half to be myself.

Nothing is more disgusting then being fake.

So be you, you’ll be more happy when you recognize the person in the mirror.

Learned that from an old friend tumblr.

Law and political science it is.

Going to bring about real changes.